He wishes he had never entered the funhouse. But he has. Then he wishes he were dead. But he's not. Therefore he will construct funhouses for others and be their secret operator - though he would rather be among the lovers for whom funhouses are designed.
I would argue that physical gratification (though less pleasurable and intense than commonly believed) is not especially wicked. Millions of people have killed themselves over “love”, but who has killed himself over his masturbatory habits?